A plan made over a year ago.
I was so excited. I haven’t even felt excited in over a year.
Now it’s all fucked. All is not lost.
How stupid could I be. All the other things I’ve done and I couldn’t even do such a simple yet important thing. Literally the simplest. And the most important.
I’ve done everything to sway my mind.
I know it’s going to be better. I know it could end up even better than it could’ve been.
Right now I would rather kill myself from my immense stupidity.
Atleast the stupidity of killing myself would be more acceptable to me than what I have done.