A few days to go

Only a few more days left till I hop onto a plane and fly to the other side of the world!  The past week has been a weird mix of emotions for me. First of all I was super excited about 2 months ago, but then the excitement wore off a month in.  So in the past few weeks whenever someone asked me if I was excited, I answered quite nonchalantly.  But the past week, oh man, at least a few times a day there would be 5 minutes I’d feel a whirlwind of emotions.  Like first I would feel empty, then suddenly I would be impressed by myself that I’m even doing this, then excited.  I would also feel scared thinking what if I mess up big time, then I would want to cry for a bit but I was probably in public so I’d hold myself together.  Then it would be back to ‘holy fuck I’m doing this’.

Anyways I had my last shift today.  And even though I’m sometimes feeling nauseous just thinking of the plane ride, I’m not too worried about it.  I  got very sick not too long ago so I should be calm enough when air sickness hits me.

Overall however, I’m mostly relaxed and mildly excited.  I’m sure I’ll be fine when I’m there.

 

/this picture I found on pixabay lol and edited it on some online editor